Posts Tagged ‘change’

Don’t stress the things you can not change.

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A woman named Emma Everleigh-Anderton, a company director in the UK, dropped from a size eighteen to a size eight after being convinced her stomach had shrunk to the size of a golf ball. Hypnotist Russell Hemmings used a combination of cognitive behavioural therapy and hypnotherapy to ‘reprogramme’ her mind into thinking she had a gastric band operation. They call it hypno-diet therapy.
I didn’t realize the human brain is so dim-witted and spongy. Why am I only finding out about this incredible brainwashing breakthrough now?
Imagine having surgery without actually having surgery? Instead of killing yourself dieting you could just automatically lose weight with no effort or health risk at all.
Thoughts and words really are things.
If I wanted a raise at work, my kid`s to clean the house or people to wait on me hand and foot, I’d just place suggestive information into their big luggin’ nuts to get what I want. I’d have the world at my fingertips.
Imagine the fun I could of had sending my ex-boyfriend into a large pharmacy store announcing to the world that he needs a large supply of tampons for his hot-stinky periods. Ah, yes – the possible memories. Hey, a girl can dream, can’t she? Ha-ha!
With the snap of my fingers I could get you to read my blogs.

Yesterday you can not change. Tomorrow you can not predict. Today your alive, so enjoy and cherish Today x

I am a good person

Posted: July 10, 2010 by Marya in Poems
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I am a good person
I am a good person this I know
I might make mistakes and say the wrong things
I might not always be able to cope with all that life brings
The only thing I can do is learn and to grow
How to be perfect is something I will never know
But whatever I do I try to do because I care
I will falter and stray this I admit so beware

I am a good person this I know
Smiles and laughter is something I always bring
Seeing people smile is my goal you might say that’s my thing
When I cause sadness and tears I never forgive myself
I remember it everyday I regret it with every breath
I need help sometimes when I can’t see what I do is wrong
But what I have learnt by myself is how to be strong

I am a good person and this I know
I care about a lot and I wish this I could show
Finding how to say sorry is one thing I may never know
I wish I was a better person I wish I knew how
But I can only be me that’s all I can be just right now
I will always try to be a good person this I will never change
Even when everyone else seems to think I am strange

I will always try to be a good person

So I did something so stupid eh.. I and now idk what to do.. I mean I am happy Justin is still my friend and that we watch movies and message each other sometimes on Blackberry even tho the messages have gotten less over the last week days but I understand.. Things aren’t the same no more between us no doubt.. After what I did to him. I couldn’t even face him when he came over to see me.. But I didn’t stop him from coming and I should have eh??  He had to find out and that was one way to show him even tho it wasnt the right way. He’s a really good man and very honest and fun to know. We still share some things like we used to idk if it’s a good idea but I am glad we do 🙂

 I wanna know what it feels like to be with him sexual yeah I said it, I bet he’s a fn awesome lover just by the things we have shared so far eh 😉 so I got all my ID and can get my new passport and then be able to go and find out for myself.. I try not to think of him as much as I use to but sometimes it hard not have him on my mind..

I made some new friends and confused to some old ones who are still my friends still cause they enjoy knowing me and things havent changed between them and me yay, Thank God eh .. I am still me how I am and act. But I notice I have changed how I talk or think of Justin now but, no one else.. Were all still very close and talk the same way as before.. I wish him all the best in life cause he deserves it no doubt.

What if I go fuck Justin and like it too much and it would suck to just leave, Most of my friends think I am nuts to just go to see him for sex.. So idk what to do about it.. It would drive me nuts not knowing. I never wanted to feel anyone that way as much as I want to him. I really feel I should go and see for myself what I would be missing out on eh.

I started to workout to get in shape and try to fill a void I feel now. I been sun tanning and eating proper and doing my P90X workouts swim in the pool and so on but, I still feel kinda empty inside. This is the begin of a new me I have changed how I use to be and thank you Justin for that, and helping me get my sleeping habits proper and all the stuff I did learn from knowing you wich is more than you realise eh *hugs*

I got some really good friends and family trying to help me smarten up and get through all of this mess I made. And I love and thank them for it for not hating me or judging me, love you all..

I know some of my friends will read this and hate me for it but oh well, its my life and I am a big girl eh.. lol

Monday July 5th 2010

Posted: July 5, 2010 by Marya in Quote of the day
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We can’t change other people but we can change the way you respond to them.

Today was ab ripper day and cardio x. Must say I really do enjoy yoga and a good cardio workout. I didn’t do the whole workout tho I broke down into two lil workouts seeing that I was in the pool half  the day counts  as exercise I was told anyways so yeah.. I didn’t have a smoke all day yay.. I found todays workout to more easy than has been I must say.. I can’t wait til the end of the month when I take new pics and see if there has been any change.. I don’t expect a big one just a lil something to show me I am doing it right eh..