Posts Tagged ‘Justin’

 
Tonight I Dont Want
That Sweet Love
Tonight I Dont Want
That Slow Love

Tonight I Want That…
Room Shaking
Bed Board Breaking
Boards Rattling
Moaning
Screaming
Cussing
Ass Smacking
Hair Pulling
Legs Quivering
Lips Trembling
Eye Rolling
Hand Shaking
FUCKING

I Want That Oragsm Bustin Sex
I Wanna Feel Every Inch Inside
I Want You To Pound Me

I Dont Want Sweet Kisses
Or Gentle Moves
I Dont Want Soft Touches
Or Long Strokes

I Want It
Hard
Fast
Rough

I Want To
Scream
Moan
Yell
Holler
Grip The Sheets

Hit It
From The Back
From The Front
From The Side

Missionary
Doggy
69
Froggy

I Dont Care What We Do
Or How We Do
As Long As You Make Me
Scream Daddy
And You FUCK ME HARD

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A super fit girl I know walked by me today with a purple mat in her hand.   “Hi. What’s that for?” I asked.   “It’s a yoga mat,” she replied. “Do you do yoga?”   I raised my eyebrows. “About as close I get to yoga is yogurt, “I answered sarcastically. “Ummm-ummmm-mmmmm,” I chanted. “Yup, it’s delicious bacteria. It’s how I keep myself in good form and…er, regular.”   Her eyes grew wide then she shrugged her shoulders and walked away.   As you can see, even though I haven’t been around that much my cheeky self is still in tact.  I’ve been relaxing and spending time with my family and Justin this summer. I’m about ready to drive my mother mad in the head crunching popsicles in her ear hole. Other than that everything’s about as great as a barrel full of deep fried monkeys.   What are you up to this summer? Come on, out with it!

So I did something so stupid eh.. I and now idk what to do.. I mean I am happy Justin is still my friend and that we watch movies and message each other sometimes on Blackberry even tho the messages have gotten less over the last week days but I understand.. Things aren’t the same no more between us no doubt.. After what I did to him. I couldn’t even face him when he came over to see me.. But I didn’t stop him from coming and I should have eh??  He had to find out and that was one way to show him even tho it wasnt the right way. He’s a really good man and very honest and fun to know. We still share some things like we used to idk if it’s a good idea but I am glad we do 🙂

 I wanna know what it feels like to be with him sexual yeah I said it, I bet he’s a fn awesome lover just by the things we have shared so far eh 😉 so I got all my ID and can get my new passport and then be able to go and find out for myself.. I try not to think of him as much as I use to but sometimes it hard not have him on my mind..

I made some new friends and confused to some old ones who are still my friends still cause they enjoy knowing me and things havent changed between them and me yay, Thank God eh .. I am still me how I am and act. But I notice I have changed how I talk or think of Justin now but, no one else.. Were all still very close and talk the same way as before.. I wish him all the best in life cause he deserves it no doubt.

What if I go fuck Justin and like it too much and it would suck to just leave, Most of my friends think I am nuts to just go to see him for sex.. So idk what to do about it.. It would drive me nuts not knowing. I never wanted to feel anyone that way as much as I want to him. I really feel I should go and see for myself what I would be missing out on eh.

I started to workout to get in shape and try to fill a void I feel now. I been sun tanning and eating proper and doing my P90X workouts swim in the pool and so on but, I still feel kinda empty inside. This is the begin of a new me I have changed how I use to be and thank you Justin for that, and helping me get my sleeping habits proper and all the stuff I did learn from knowing you wich is more than you realise eh *hugs*

I got some really good friends and family trying to help me smarten up and get through all of this mess I made. And I love and thank them for it for not hating me or judging me, love you all..

I know some of my friends will read this and hate me for it but oh well, its my life and I am a big girl eh.. lol

Have I ever told you
that if I sit really still and silent,
sometimes. I like to think
I can hear your heart beating
in time with mine?

Have I ever told you
that when I watch you speak to me
through lines and cords,
and bytes and ram,
I imagine
your voice,
whispering into my ear?

Have I ever told you
that I wait out each day
in anticipation,
wanting
only an hour or two,
just a second in space and time,
to feel close to you?

Have I ever told you
that there has been times,
when I ached for you,
ached for you so badly,
that the emotions overwhelmed me..
and so I sat and cried?

Have I ever told you
that sometimes,
I will reach out,
touching your name
on this cold screen before me,
wishing
I could reach in
and pull you to me?

Have I ever told you
that after the first time I heard
the sound of your voice,
thousands of miles away,
I sat up all night,
turning the conversation over and over
in my mind,
examining it,
like some newly discovered species of flower?

Have I ever told you
that I would give everything up,
just for one night
to be able to lay near you,
to feel your chest rise and fall
with each breath you take,
just to know that you are real?

Have I ever told you
that I dream of you often,
I dream of you reaching out
and touching my hand,
simply to let me know
that you are there,
and everything is okay?

Have I ever told you,
have I still yet to tell you . . .
that I love you?

A beautiful poem eh

The feelings were true, but the lies took it away… Idk but I cant sleep and I been sitting here thinking … I dont want to go back in time I just am so sorry…

I don’t know what to do.. I have not lived near or close to my family most of my life.. I left home when I was 16 yrs old.. Moved all over the place til I made Winnipeg my new home and stayed for 15 yrs off and on.. I moved to Windsor in March 2009 to be close to them.. But I did enjoy being away from them as much as I missed everyone too..  But I wanna leave Windsor so bad, but I wanna stay at the same time, at least til I go see Arse this time and not run away from him eh.. I wanna know how it feels to have his nekkid body against mine. And to feel him deep inside me.. Sigh. I wish I didn’t let things happen the way they did. If I didn’t I could have known what  it feels like to be with him.. Idk if it’s a good idea to go and have sex with him but, I feel if I don’t I would always wonder how good it felt..  Sigh I hope I figure out these things before its to late… I never been with some one just for sex, but I wanna know all the same how good it feels..