MaryaOnly the lonely survives strongly, as for I will strongly die. An unexplored life is a life with no experience ~ For exploration has consistently hit me, but experience I have none. A life without love is a life without emotions ~ For love has come and gone but my emotions are stressfully dying.
A rested head and an uncleared mind is taking up the worse in me. It’s so stressing to take up for someone else’s problem. My mind is to the point to where every thought that it encounters drowns in the world around me.
Fiendfully loving, yearning to be loved…Loved to where I know he’s not ~ As in every hurt, every bit of pain that I dont want to endure. I’ve never wanted to hurt ~ For the pain that I give is a pain to forgive, it is a pain to understand. But the pain that I receive, is a pain so unfair. So did I need to hurt…better yet deserve it???
My heart is only so big, with only so much power ~ Don’t hold, don’t touch…Just look and feel the damage that you have done. Intentionally never is the reason but I don’t know is always the answer. Though being not necessary, Was it worth it???
Then if you love me, why dont you hurt??? Why don’t you feel the pain that your love has rationed out. If you know it at mind, then feel it in your heart.
Love me, that’s all I ever needed ~ Loving me right is all I ever wanted.
*Silently Speaking, Secretly Feeling, Discreetly Loving…You’re not here ~ Why??
Just Marya Now 